It’s been nice taking a break from mental health for a short while. I’ve long been obsessed with the topic, especially after being diagnosed with borderline personality disorder in 2012. Beyond that, psychology is simply fascinating isn’t it? Why do we humans do some of the crazy stuff we do–at times amazing, at times deplorable.
I’ve tackled a lot of hurdles when it comes to BPD. I still have the urge to do some of the crazy stuff I used to do–not sure if that will ever fully go away–the difference now is that I simply do not act on those urges. I’m able to talk myself out of all that.
Social anxiety and occasional depression continue to be a problem though, as I know it is for a lot of other people. In my case, I believe social anxiety is what often leads to my depression and was probably a major contributing factor toward my BPD. Interesting to think about.
Overcoming social anxiety remains a mystery to those of us who suffer with it. On one hand, I can tell myself that I fear no one and that I don’t give a fiddle’s fart if people judge me one way or another. One the other hand, there is reality. Reality isn’t always rational. I recently watched this TED Talk: “Social Anxiety in the Modern World” by Dr. Fallon Goodman, which I enjoyed and plan to watch often.
Social anxiety and narcissism
One question I had recently is whether social anxiety tends to be narcissistic. After all, both involve being hyper-focused on one’s self to the point of detriment. I need not have worried too much though as there are a lot of differences. I found this article from AnxietyBoss.com helpful: “Is Social Anxiety Related To Narcissism?“
With social anxiety, a person is ultra-sensitive to rejection and they blame themselves for it. Staying away from certain kinds of people is like a self-imposed punishment. That’s most definitely the case for me.
With narcissism, a person blames everyone else for their problems. No one is noticing how great they are. A certain amount of narcissism is thought to be normal in order to maintain a healthy self-image but of course it can go way too far.
Anywho, I’ve decided to carry over Moody Monday posts from the Midnight Harmony phase of my life–just couldn’t stay away from the topic of mental health.
The photos are from my recent trip to Idaho. So beautiful isn’t? I hadn’t seen fall in person in close to a decade so it ended up being more amazing than I ever thought. I have so many more to post!
Hope everyone is doing well and keeping sane!