I’m lucky to have spent ten Christmases in a row, before this last one, in a tropical climate, which has long helped in feeling festive during the season. I’m not one to poo poo all over the holiday season, but this time around I’m so glad they are over. I’m still in Idaho dealing with significant problems and I generally find snow and cold pretty depressing, except for when I used to ski.
Everyone here is either anxious or in a sort of confused fog. Most of my extended family members are cool and helpful, but there are a few who love to spread rumors, start drama, and be anything but helpful. I’ve had to ignore or even block a few on certain social media accounts. It’s sad but it’s really the least of my worries–most of that baggage I already dealt with years ago.
Mental health never stops being confusing!
I’m in a very curious situation now–a kind of reversal or shift in juxtaposition–some weird thing. It is me who is healthier and stronger, mentally speaking, but getting caught up in someone else’s mental health nightmare. I can’t even describe how strange it is to be on this side of things when I was once on the other side–looking at a person and having recognition and understanding of what they are going through, but still being thoroughly perplexed at the same time.
It’s almost surreal but perhaps this whole mental health journey is finally coming full circle. Nothing about it is fun. Such, at times, is the reality of life.
The one bright spot has been to visit with my new grandbaby, who is a little over two months old now. He’s just so precious.
I hope everyone is doing well and had a better holiday season than me! Need to catch up with everyone. I’ve been spending a lot of time lately on Medium. Been fitting in pretty well over there–this “fitting in” thing is still kinda new to me but I love it!
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